Welcome to dreamland. 

The calm evenings of summer are the only thing that comforts my mind these days. For some reason I have been doing lots of deep thinking and since my chaotic life turned normal again I forgot just how peaceful these nights can be. Let me give you an idea of my current inner peace…..

“Laying on a bed of pillows and blankets on the bed in the absoulte most comforatable position, music is softly playing in the background. Sounds of my boyfriends dirtbike going back and forth by the window. Cool air blowing right on me while i write words i think up in my head”

And that is my heaven. ❤

With that being said, my deep thoughts are now going to carry me away into this neverending dream land i fail to leave everyday.
Love you all. 

– Shelby

Welcome to dreamland. 

The calm evenings of summer are the only thing that comforts my mind these days. For some reason I have been doing lots of deep thinking and since my chaotic life turned normal again I forgot just how peaceful these nights can be. Let me give you an idea of my current inner peace…..

“Laying on a bed of pillows and blankets on the bed in the absoulte most comforatable position, music is softly playing in the background. Sounds of my boyfriends dirtbike going back and forth by the window. Cool air blowing right on me while i write words i think up in my head”

And that is my heaven. ❤

With that being said, my deep thoughts are now going to carry me away into this neverending dream land i fail to leave everyday.
Love you all. 

– Shelby

Im just getting started.

“”4am I’m just getting started” as Gucci Mayne says. Im currently up and at ut this morning. Dash cleaned all night so ill clean all morning. Its only fair right? Well now that its clean and im sitting in front of the air cooling off. Yesterday was kinda a cleaning day for us at our house. The internet people are coming and we wanted to make sure our little house was tidy for them. 

So let me brag on my boyfriend for a min. I could be anywhere else in the world but I chose to be with a G. Haha. But for real tho. He ditched his G status for just yesterday and cleaned my whole car, the house, got rid of all the trash and there is no telling what he did while I was sleeping. Hes got the best heart you guys for real. Everything im lacking in life or that im not good at hes my strength. I know a lot of you all were worried at one point but hes my backbone and im not going anywhere. 😍 

Its crazy to think that life can happen the way it does. Ill try to get more pics you guys but Dash dosent like pictures. 😦 ill do what i can though.

– Shelby

Maybe.. but probably not.

Sometimes it’s the little things in life that are actually big things. People tend to over look all of those little things and only look at the big. Of course your gonna remember all the big things like when you graduate, or when you get in a relationship, or when you finally get something you’ve been saving for or whatever, but the little things, such as what people do for you, or the things people say to you, or even the lazy days that you spend doing nothing all day. Those are the things that will mean the most to you down the line. Live and Love in the moment, because you never know what tomorrow brings.

Today has been like a Sunday for me and Dash. We’ve layed around in our pjs and done nothing all day long. We’ve talked of future plans and answered some of your questions which in turn has given us a better perception of eachother. He’s pretty great you guys.. And hes mine. God knew what he was doing when he gave me you and Frank. 

– Shelby

2:00am.

I don’t know why I feel the need to stay up so late at night these days. My current view of my cat at the foot of my bed, and my boyfriend and his friend on the couch chatting with each other is my haven. The simplicity of life lately has been overwhelming. In not sure what life has in store for me but Im excited to see where it goes. It amazes me everyday. I know that with my man, and my cat by my side I can accomplish anything because they believe in and count on me.

Late night thoughts at 2:00am. 

– Shelby 

Morning Thoughts.

I cant just forget a person. I guess that’s why it’s so hard for me. Nothing for me just ever easily goes away. I just stuff everything that I have kept in my memory about that person tucked away until I want those memories again. We’re both going through different kinds of struggles now. Way different. We need each other but our pride for both of us is somehow over powering the love we told each other we felt. Even if it Isent what I think… i wish you the best… i still here. You were my hero for way too long. love doesn’t just stop. Just saying. 

– Shelby

Even in darkness.

Good morning loves, it’s so very early but I just can’t sleep, which means I need to write.

I would just like to point out to everyone that your life is yours, and no one should be telling you how to live it. If you feel a certain way about something such as where you live, who your with, what job you want, or anything. Even if people tell you it’s wrong or it’s bad for you. In The end your never really gonna know until you go through whatever it is. You mind will always wonder if your body never does. 

Once you have went through whatever it was, if it was good for you.. That’s fantastic! Embrace your new changes, don’t rub it in people’s faces that you were right, just keep your new positive and move forward…

If it was bad, don’t let people’s reactions of your new decisions break you, even if people say I told you so, dont listen to them. Don’t let life get you down just because of one mistake. Because now that you have went through whatever it was you have learned not to let whatever it was break you again. 

Life is one crazy ride, but you can do it if you keep your self positive even in darkness. 

Have a great day merfolk. – Shelby